we were doing well for a couple weeks and then went and saw the therapist on thursday last week. man, what a blowup again. we get in there in the trust tree in the nest and throw stuff out and its the same argument again.....time. neither of us have any. She doesn't know why I want to go see the guys (I saw 2 guys that are going to be in my wedding 1st and 3rd spots friday for the first time in a month) every now and then. I am not hanging out and drinking when I'm in the shop, I'm fuggin working. I used to fawk off in the shop, now I work. No one comes over to hang out while I work now becuase that's what's going on. she's pulling 80ish hours and is miserable. life gaurds calling at 5 A.M. saying they can't come in, calling late at night "too sick" to work. she needs a new job but is too proud of her independence to take a small paycut for a huge cut in hours and life sucking responsibilities. she took this last weekend off and it was great. I didn't work and we hung out and talked and humped and went out to a movie. other than the baby, it was great. I don't know, rambling, just confused. I want to move to bama and put the wedding off for a year while I do what I need to. she wants to come with. she has a kid, that will be rough on her. just a bad time to get married is all I'm saying.
Did any of that make any sense?
