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it's kinda quiet around here.. Hope everyone is doing good... I have been kinda absent lately.. Working on **** in the garage and around the house. ... And I have a confession... I got on this face book binge lately. I think I'm addicted to the classifieds and all the **** for sale... I was thinkin and I don't see how so many keep up with more than one, maybe 2 forums... Shits so time consuming.. I feel like I have been cheating on HL. So I think it's time to take a break from FB. Dam I can't believe how fast I got sucked in. It's like crack. ok maybe not but ya know wat I mean. Anyways, this week I'm gonna detox from being on FB as much. I always said I would never be a facebooger and look at me now. So ashamed, so disappointed... . Gonna be a long tough road to recovery ,, but it's nothing that I haven't done before. Ha.
I wanna ride, bad. I can't sit at the house on the weekends I don't have my oldest daughter piddling on **** much longer. All my buddies around here suck when it comes to going riding so if anyone goes riding let a negro know. If not I'll be going by my dam self to Choco or some where soon, really soon. Hell I may go during the week. So no one round here can find me. .. Either that or diggin a deep hole and jumping in it. Head first .. before I lose my mind... more than I have already.
I still have this dream of finding some land to lease to ride on. It will happen one day. Oh yes it will. I have ZERO places to ride locally so the parks is it for me. It's winter time.. And that means my worthless ass has free time to hide from the folks i work for and do what I want.. Did I mention I wanna ride?? Ok. Well, just wanted to see what yall fellas was up to . Bout to burn and blow leaves I guess. Have a good day fellas... You to Kel. :smoke: Hope everyone is doing well...
 
I am thinking I might start riding on Wednesdays or Thursdays every week and the weekend. I only have to pick up orders on Tuesday, so the rest of my week I am wide open. I also now have new tires on the truck, new tires on the trailer and a small buggy that needs a beating. I will be STL'ing it this weekend and for New Years. Besides that, I need to ride too.
 
taint gonna lie. I'm having a terrible time right now with keeping up with life. the struggle is real. :'(
 
I finally broke down and went to the doctor for a check up and blood work and stuff I have not done in over 12 years. Cholesterol and blood levels are off the roof level 2 diabetic or some **** like that. So I started taking the appropriate meds. But As always in my life I am a wound up ball of nerves and energy. Wife and I are always at each others throats. Ben please be respectful in your comments on this subject. So I went back to the doctor again last week. Told him about all my anxiety and anger issues. Prozac and Valium are what he prescribed. I not gonna lie I love the Valium because I will take it on my way home from work to help keep me calm with the wife. I'm hate to say this here in public but I fawking am going crazy. I hate my situation I'm in and want out. The only thing that makes me happy anymore are my son, my few friends I hardly ever see anymore and wheeling.
 
bad80cj said:
I finally broke down and went to the doctor for a check up and blood work and stuff I have not done in over 12 years. Cholesterol and blood levels are off the roof. So I started taking the appropriate meds. But As always in my life I am a wound up ball of nerves and energy. Wife and I are always at each others throats. Ben please be respectful in your comments on this subject. So I went back to the doctor again last week. Told him about all my anxiety and anger issues. Prozac and Valium are what he prescribed. I not gonna lie I love the Valium because I will take it on my way home from work to help keep me calm with the wife. I'm hate to say this here in public but I fawking am going crazy. I hate my situation I'm in and want out. The only thing that makes me happy anymore are my son, my few friends I hardly ever see anymore and wheeling.
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Whelp.....I can help with a little of that. Sounds like a Morris or Chocco trip in the next few weeks is on the docket. Anyone that can admit their faults or weaknesses is more of a man in my book. Good on you too for getting your physical too.

I can admit to being in a bad spot a few different times over the last 5 or so years. Self medicating for me only made it worse. Anxiety from building a business from the ground up, shutting it down for a month while building a new store, and then rebuilding customer base and inventory. Gained a bunch of weight because of it too. Once you get a grip on the physical and mental health, life will find a way of showing you the path you need to take. For me, it was quitting work for a while. I took a pretty good cut in pay and we struggle due to my wheeling habits from time to time. But, I actually get to spend time with my kids every day now and I am cooking and cleaning around the house too. I think I quit in August-ish and will start back part time in January. It was my only move to get my head right. I know I am much more tolerable to be around from the friends side, family side and just the general public too. I still haven't figured out the sleep issue, because I don't want a CPAP machine, but thats for another day.

And if you wanna borrow the piece of Samurai, I can drop it off or you can come and pick it up. :dblthumb: Its not big block Ford, but all 60 of the HP are on tap from 1000-6000 rpms booyang
 
bad80cj said:
I finally broke down and went to the doctor for a check up and blood work and stuff I have not done in over 12 years. Cholesterol and blood levels are off the roof level 2 diabetic or some **** like that. So I started taking the appropriate meds. But As always in my life I am a wound up ball of nerves and energy. Wife and I are always at each others throats. Ben please be respectful in your comments on this subject. So I went back to the doctor again last week. Told him about all my anxiety and anger issues. Prozac and Valium are what he prescribed. I not gonna lie I love the Valium because I will take it on my way home from work to help keep me calm with the wife. I'm hate to say this here in public but I fawking am going crazy. I hate my situation I'm in and want out. The only thing that makes me happy anymore are my son, my few friends I hardly ever see anymore and wheeling.
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Taking the 1st step is always the hardest, but the most effective way of getting better. Keep working on things and life will be better.
 
I personally can't STAND this time of year... Everyone is on edge mentally, regardless of what comes out of their mouth, they HATE getting together with their family...
The last few years, I've not had a place to release my frustrations, like a shop. So, i sit in my motorhouse and nearly come to tears. Nightly. So I get it, I'm stir crazy too. I think to an extent, folks who love the outdoors, all get a little stircrazy this time of year. I grew up outside. I just HAVE to be outside. Sitting in a recliner watching TV and logged in to social media all night is not what I want...
I've had friends offer shop-time... that's not what I want. i want a spot where i can go tinker and leave projects out. My own space. For nights when I'm done eating and need an hour or two to just sit under the truck and LOOK at ****.

short story long... I get it. This time of year sucks.
And mine and Ben's Birthday is in 4 DAMN DAYS!!! **** them candles.
 
Well I did get to play in the shop last night. Total stress reliever. It the little things. Eric what you doing Monday morning?

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To bring it full-circle, the last person asking me to meet them for breakfast in the same manner and never called me but met up for breakfast, was BBone, and his Birthday is today as well like mine!

I enjoy the blueballs experience.
 
LandSpeeder said:
To bring it full-circle, the last person asking me to meet them for breakfast in the same manner and never called me but met up for breakfast, was BBone, and his Birthday is today as well like mine!

I enjoy the blueballs experience.
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Fawker you know I love ya. I dropped the ball. This I am truly sorry for. :(
 

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